Up and Down

[Verse 1]
I’m lovin’ him hard or hatin’ his guts
A text I’m flyin’, no text I’m stuck
I let his morning mood decide if mine’s good
Let his cold shoulder freeze more than it should
friends say, “you’re a rollercoaster, no brakes"
"yeah, but I can't be fake"
I’m tired of ridin’ someone else’s wave
Time to level this out and live my way
I’m always up and down
Yeah, I'm always up and down

[Chorus]
Up when he wants me, down when he hides
On Top of a mountain, then in a mudslide
I gave him the remote to my whole damn mood
Time to take the batteries out, we're through
Done lettin' this clown spin my merry-go-round
Gettin’ off this ride, tired of up and down
Up and down
Sick of up and down

[Verse 2]
Canceled my plans when he said he might call
Lost fifteen pounds when he quit callin’ at all
Dancin’ on tables, then cryin’ in my car
Depending on whether he was close or far
Blocked his number, quit checkin’ my phone
Took some me time to be alone
First week was hell, third week felt like new
The real rollercoaster was you-know-who
I’m not always up and down
I’m not always up and down

[Chorus]
Up when I want to, down when I choose
Steady in the middle in my own damn shoes
Threw out the remote and I changed my whole mood
Feels good feelin' what I want to
Ain’t no-one spinnin’ me around this town
I’m finally standin’ still, no more up and down
Up and down
Thank God I’m done with up and down

Solo don’t mean lonely it means just mine
I’m good all by myself, first time in a long time

[Chorus]
Up when I want to, down when I choose
Steady in the middle in my own damn shoes
Threw out the remote and changed my whole mood
Feels good feelin' what I want to
Ain’t no-one spinnin’ me around this town
I’m finally standin’ still, no more up and down
Up and down
I’m finally done with your up and down