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Backstory:

This is about that feeling when you lose someone- a breakup or other and it is just SOOO close to the surface but you have to go on and live your life. That the tears are lurking behind my eyes is how I have felt at times. This song came together in my head thinking about a particularly hard winter when I lost someone I loved. Again, doesnt have to be death- could be a breakup. But its about the human experience of feeling fragile and vulnerable and just trying to keep it together sometimes.

Lyrics:

                                                  
Pickin’ up coffee “How you doin’ today?”
Acquaintance on the street “How you been?”
Practiced smiles and breezy words
I’m gettin’ by, but it still hurts

Since you left, I’ve been weighted down
Like I’m under water and I just might drown 
Like I’m carrying around a heavy load
That breaks my back but I can’t let go

Tears are lurking behind my eyes
Tears are lurking but I don’t want to cry
Too much to do, and people to see
And I don’t want to show that part of me
Tears are lurking, they follow me
Everywhere I go, I’m never free
Since you left, there’s a hole inside of me
There’s a hole inside that no one else can see

A face in a crowd up ahead of me
Half a second and I’m stopped in my tracks
I choke on my breath and my heart beats fast
But I know it's not you, and the moment moves past

Since you left, I’ve been weighted down
Like I’m under water and I just might drown 
Like I’m carrying around a heavy load
That breaks my back but I can’t let go

Tears are lurking in the back of my eyes
Tears are lurking, but I don’t want to cry
Too much to do, and people to see
And I don’t want to show that part of me
Tears are lurking, they follow me
Everywhere I go, I’m never free
Since you left there’s a hole inside of me
There’s a hole inside that no one else can see

I’m just waiting ‘till I’m alone so I can cry
But since you left that day,
These tears have moved right in like they’re gonna stay